Saturday, October 2, 2010

Longing for His Presence

Draw me into your presence, Lord
I fix my eyes on You.
Draw me into your presence, Lord.
I fix my eyes on You.
I want to see your face
Draw close in your embrace
And rest beneath the shelter of your grace.

In your presence, is where I want to be. 
©Debbie Guinn 2008

Father, blogging is hard, writing is hard, thinking is hard...being real and vulnerable are hard.  

I'm not myself these days Medication, MS and pain are affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually...and I don't want others to know.  I just want to hide and draw in to Your in Your will all be better.  I'm struggling to find You...hear You...see Your face, feel Your warm embrace.  My mind is a maze of disconnected thoughts that can't seem to discern how to make sense of anything...not even Your Word...Your voice.  

I know You are here...You've promised never to leave me and You have proved faithful more times than I can count.  It's just another test of my faith...blind trust You even when I can't find You.  

Draw me into Your presence, Father...I fix my blind eyes on You.  And I sing with David...

"God, you are my God
I greatly long for you.
  With all my heart I thirst for you
in this dry desert
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sacred tent.
There I have seen your power and your glory.
Your love is better than life.
I will bring glory to you with my lips
I will praise you as long as I live.
I will lift up my hand when I pray to you.
I will be as satisfied as if I had eaten the best food there is.
I will sing praise to you with my mouth.
As I lie on my bed I remember you.
I think of you all night long.
Because you have helped me,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
I hold on to you.
Your powerful right hand takes good care of me."
Psalm 63:1-8 (NIRV)

Resting in your powerful right hand...Amen.