Saturday, October 2, 2010

Longing for His Presence


Draw me into your presence, Lord
I fix my eyes on You.
Draw me into your presence, Lord.
I fix my eyes on You.
I want to see your face
Draw close in your embrace
And rest beneath the shelter of your grace.

In your presence, is where I want to be. 
©Debbie Guinn 2008

Father, blogging is hard, writing is hard, thinking is hard...being real and vulnerable are hard.  

I'm not myself these days Medication, MS and pain are affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually...and I don't want others to know.  I just want to hide and draw in to You...seek Your face...be in Your presence...it will all be better.  I'm struggling to find You...hear You...see Your face, feel Your warm embrace.  My mind is a maze of disconnected thoughts that can't seem to discern how to make sense of anything...not even Your Word...Your voice.  

I know You are here...You've promised never to leave me and You have proved faithful more times than I can count.  It's just another test of my faith...blind faith...to trust You even when I can't find You.  

Draw me into Your presence, Father...I fix my blind eyes on You.  And I sing with David...

"God, you are my God
I greatly long for you.
  With all my heart I thirst for you
in this dry desert
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sacred tent.
There I have seen your power and your glory.
Your love is better than life.
I will bring glory to you with my lips
I will praise you as long as I live.
I will lift up my hand when I pray to you.
I will be as satisfied as if I had eaten the best food there is.
I will sing praise to you with my mouth.
As I lie on my bed I remember you.
I think of you all night long.
Because you have helped me,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
I hold on to you.
Your powerful right hand takes good care of me."
Psalm 63:1-8 (NIRV)

Resting in your powerful right hand...Amen.




5 comments:

Tea with Tiffany said...

Hi sweet Debbie, reading your heartfelt prayer touched my heart and made me tear up. I too know the place of feeling disconnected and confused and weary. I'm sorry you aren't feeling good these days. Thank you for being SO real with your prayers, that's amazing to me to know you are not holding back when you could easily do so.

Father God, please come near my sweet friend Debbie. Allow her strength to be renewed. For I believe you have much more for her to do and You have so much more of her to discover day by day. More of your love. More of your grace. Lord, show Yourself to Debbie in a powerful, fresh way. Minister to her in her weakness. Pour out truth in love and Your grace in abundance. Let her know You are there. Whisper something special to her. God, Debbie's faith even now is precious to You. You smile at Your daughter always. She is never condemned. She is always accepted and loved. She is beautiful to You, LORD. Show her that is so. Show her You are with her today, right now. Speak for your servant Debbie is listening. Sing a new song over her heart and spirit. Let Debbie experience the joy of her salvation all over again. Let her experience your presence again. Be big. Be great. Be perfect love to Debbie. In Jesus name, Amen.

Denise said...

Praying with you, and for you dear one.

Lily said...

Everyone has spiritual dry spells, I'm praying for you.

God bless,
~Lily
www.neverfadingwood.blogspot.com

Peggy said...

oooh my dear Debbie... how real your heart ache, how true your heart cry, how my heart breaks with you in His presence. May He draw you into His Presence and soothe all these draining effects! May His Spirit fill you with strength and power! May His grace & mercies bring you MORE COMFORT and peace in your distress & lack.

Good connection with the Psalm and the song words! I know you remember when I was unable to pray and I just should have shared like you, openly and honestly, telling it as it is and pressing in to Our Refuge and Our Shelter in the many 'storms' of life. Hold on to the anchor as He holds on to You!

Zimbabwe said...

At first, I want to say: Hello, Debbie!
You aren't alone. God watches You and know all Your jows and sorrows. One of the best Bible fragment in my opinion, for wounded hearts is - Is 40, 28 - 31.
If You want to write on my blog - You are heartly welcome.